Have you ever... ?

Have you ever watched a movie, or read a book, and wished you were a certain character?

I do this a lot. I guess you could say I am an imaginative person. I day dream about the weirdest things, and this is one of them. Any time I love a movie or book, there is a character I always love. Something about them, makes me wish I was them.
I have been thinking about this a lot recently, and why I do it. And I think I figured it out.
I think it's because we see those characters, and see how well their life worked out. And here we are, living life slowly. Its not a 2 hour movie, and then we know how our life was. Life isn't a "fast read" and quite often, it isn't a "page turner".
I think the two reasons are that either I am unsettled with my own life and I don't know how it will turn out, or that they have something I want to have.
Anyways That is what has been on my mind. Hope you enjoy.

Lets Get Real.

So this morning I went into my bathroom, and what did I find on my mirror? A friendly little spider. Okay, maybe not so friendly. Very creepy actually.
So what was my reaction? You are probably guessing kill it. If you did, you are very wrong. I simply grabbed my things and re-located (hoping it would disapear and be gone for good). Then tonight I went into my bathroom...
And he was still there! But this time I actually looked at it. He was about the size of a quarter now. And his legs were super long and see through. He was super creepy. Now, I don't especially care for spiders, but I am far from loving them. My brother has like 50 tarantuals and I go and check them out every once in a while.. I think they are awesome. This one little guy just got to me. No joke.
ANYWAYS. I decided that since it hadn't moved in more than 12 hours it was going to have to be killed. I gave it space for that long, I wanted my bathroom back. But, it took me 30 minutes to actually do it. It was the most awful thing ever.
But, I did learn something about that spider. He must really love himself cause he was on the mirror for like 20 hours.

Hard times

The other morning I was eating a bowl of Lucky Charms. You should know that I love Lucky Charms. LOVE. I don't eat them the normal way... I eat the cereal part first, then eat the marshmallows. While I was doing this, I was thinking about life. And then I thought that eating this bowl of cereal was like life. You struggle to do something, or have a hard time, then it gets good. So like picking out the ceral, it's annoying, but it's worth it in the end.

Update

So it has been a while since I have posted. My excuse is that I was super busy. All of last week I was never actually home until after five. Why? I was helping people with their choir auditions, and working on mine.
That's right, I tried out for choir. I tried out last Friday. I wont lie, it was a tough weekend because I wanted to see the list. I felt like I did good until I found out about all of my other friends auditions. They all sang more than once, but I only sang once. Knowing that, I thought I wasn't going to get in.
I tried out for our schools highest choir, and I never really knew how bad I wanted in until I was waiting for today. I was dreaming about the audition, and I messed up every time, and So as you can guess, I was super nervous I wouldn't get in.
So I'm guessing you are wondering if I got in or not. My teacher is doing call back this year, so I wouldn't officially be in if I was put on the list, but I will gladly tell you, That I did make it to callbacks! I am super excited. I know I could still not make it, but since I made it this far, I feel pretty good about myself.
Anyways, I guess I should let you in on what else is going on. I passed all of my classes, and will be going on tour April 4th. I am super excited! It is the beginning of a new term, and all is well in life.
One thing I think I might do is make an email for the people who read this to ask questions, and give ideas of things you might want me to blog about... we will see though.

My Ward

In the past month or so, I have realized how incredible my ward is. There is a boy who has a muscular problem, and their family is in financial need. He needs multiple surgeries, and they have run out of money.
My ward is incredible, along with so many other members. They are putting together a fundraiser for this family. If you want to know more about this family or want to help, the link is as follows.
http://helpjeromiah.org/
I have seen them jump in to help others, and they are almost always willing to pitch in. They are great!

Choir

So this year I am in choir. Today, I went in to set up my classes. I signed up for choir, but I am not so sure that I want to keep it.
You would think that in choir of all things, there wouldn't be drama. But, thats a lie. There has been so much drama. I love singing, but I'm not so sure I want to deal with it.
What do you think? Keep it, or drop it?

I want to live for...

Today I went to my neighbors house to work on personal progress. Now, lately I have been down on myself. I have been stressed, been rude to people, had no patience, and that isn't like me. Normally someone could be throwing flaming balls of fire at me, and I would still be in controll. But lately if I find out that someone said something about me behind my back, I just don't want to talk to them. And I snap at everyone else because I assume that everyone is doing the same. But I am normally not quick to judge.
I think this is all because I have been hard on myself. I have been telling myself "I am not good enough to do such and such, or so and so hates me because I did this." when I really didn't do anything wrong, but I have been taking things to heart way to much. Today was just one of those days, where god told me "I am good. Everyone makes stupid mistakes. Everyone regrets things. But I am still wonderful. I am doing so many things right, don't let the little things you are doing wrong get you down." and he showed me that in many ways.
I was reading scriptures for my personal progress, and it was about qualities a mother should have. As I was reading, I kept thinking "I do that. I do that. I do that." to almost every single thing that it listed.
I'm church something that was said made me realize that. "The two most important things a person can do is controll their thoughts, and communicate with god" two things I have been working very hard on.
I was talking to my sister in law on the phone, and we were talking about horrible days. I think a lot of times those days relate to the feeling of "I am not good enough" and so we just feel miserable. I had mentioned that the women of this world are way to hard on theirselves. We live in a world where we feel like we have to be as good, or better than other people.
After I got off the phone, I started thinking about that. In this time, it is especially hard for women to feel confident about themselves. We have to wear bikinis to be noticed, we have to be thin. We 'have' to do so many things to be good enough. But I realized tonight that's not true.
We may live in a world of those things, but we don't have to live for the world. I don't want to live for the world. In fact, I am not going to.
I want to live for God.